God is good. Fear is not of God. Things have been going well for a while. This is my first summer in three of not going completely off of mental health medications. Yes, this summer is much better than the last two, and I am sure my husband and daughter would agree. I am learning a lot. Want to know a precious gem? If you cannot love yourself for how God made you now, you will never love yourself. Not sure if that is clear. Basically, you have to love yourself right now where you are. Because if it is dependant on how much you weigh, how much you have accomplished, how many kids you have, what your husband thinks of you, whether or not you have a husband, what degrees come behind your name, etc., you will never truly love yourself for who you are.
I am learning that what you believe about yourself can have a HUGE impact on all of the rest of your life. I am going to seek for truths about who I am and how valuable I am from the Bible - what God says about me.
Okay back to the fear part. As I said, things have been going well. For those not aware of past posts, this past fall was the worst I have ever felt in my life. And although things have been going decently, there has been a small part of me that has been concerned about this fall. Fearing - what if it happens again? What if the bottom just drops out of my life again? I have had 7 months of sound mind and emotions. It is easy to take it for granted for most of us. What if it happens again?
I was in a group where people were talking about fear and the power that it can have if we let it. We can let our lives be completely ruled by fear. At some point I realized that although this past fall was horrific for me and I could not feel God near at all, looking back I believe He was carrying me. There is nowhere I can go where He will not be. If you have any doubts, check Psalm 139.
